you have potential. don't let fear of failure stop you. dream big. What is it about this kind of advice that is so daunting. Why can't they say "be who you are and go after what you want"? Or is that what they are saying when they use words like "potential"? How do you define what you want and what you think you want?
remember a time in your life when you can't recall any stress or worry.
remember a period of time where the memory is first of joy, and then of the event.


(this just came...)

To the beach

Shoulders sweep, bags bump,
careful i am watching the sea
of people winding toward and away from me.
Voices weave, hands wave,
found i am passing the shop songs that
lure me down the street past the lamplight poll.
Together all target the end,
an ocean vast, hungry but full.

(still needs work...)

Freedom. how is it really defined? The Merriam-Webster Dictionary says that freedom is "the quality or state of being free." Free is "having liberty or enjoying personal or political independence" and "not subject to or allowing slavery."

I have concluded that to be free and truly have freedom, first there must be restriction to or by something. Freedom comes when there is a release or a relief of something. That restriction could be something that we are born with or that is put upon us. We were not born into this world free. Living in a broken world and bound by sin, we needed freedom, some release. Sin places us under obligations. It breeds shame. It produces disappointment. It is a cycle that only further causes frustration. It does not allow for complete joy. It gives no hope.

The freedom came with Christ. He took the binds of sin and conquered it. No longer do we live as people of no hope, but now redeemed, we know the truth and can take hold of our rightful place in heaven given to us by Him. Jesus brought freedom to a world wrought by sin. This is the freedom I choose to embrace. It is fulfilling today, yesterday, and tomorrow. My future is decided. Whether today is stormy or I walk through a dry land, my hope, faith, and confidence rest in Him and in the freedom He has brought. In this freedom I will live.

Romans 6:5-14

i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
                                 i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

This is quite an odd time for me to begin a blog. Out of everything that I have done in my life, it seems peculiar that now is the time for me to begin a blog. After all the traveling that I have done and all the chances to record everything that I have seen, the people I have met, and the things that I have learned, now I begin to blog. Okay, so it is probably because I have more free time on my hands and I have chosen to fill it with different types of reading and writing..so this is one of those types. I really do have heaps of ideas in my mind about numerous topics that I believe I could put into writing. Rather that be in creative stories, poems, songs, or just blogs, I really don't know. I will always possess the desire to compose and create, as I know that is how we humans were made.
So, as the first entry of my blog, I would like to give an introduction to my life. I am finding that I am learning a lot about myself. I am learning to be not only comfortable with what I am discovering, but also confident with what I find. I realize that I may be quirky. I know that I see things in a practical manner, yet I have a desperately romantic view. I want my life to be melodious, not necessarily rhythmic though. I value people over place, but location and places usually have a meaningful spot in my life. I strongly support quality over quantity. I rest in the fact that God is bigger than my mind.

{Significant events of this week: Monday: hit a squirrel (very sad) Tuesday: double tall no whip white chocolate mocha.}